Original Wish (Sin)

As i woke up today, i would not have imagined how it would end, such a simple thing to say till you actually went through one - or many, and just when you thought it would just end as you thought you would - surprise -
"Careful what you wish for you just might get it. "

Is it too much of a dream to dream, is it too much to wish for and actually get it?

Then there are consequences of what you wish - because when you wish you just do it without sparing a thought that when one thing changes the rest does not remain the same. Something else needs to change to facilitate the change that you wished for. And you dont know this other change or do not have control over it. you just think you control your original wish.

I wished in my college days to live and work in New York, the glamour thrown at me by movies and serials - enamored me, invited me with arms stretched out, the city lights and streets, and then my imagination. Me a sharp (intelligent) executive expensive suit, broad grin across my brown face, walking with confidence - like a million bucks.

The dream of many youngsters. By the time i left college and started facing reality, my dreams were turning to a sham, felt like a poor joke at the face of the obvious reality. Started realising that these dreams are just imaginations born out of boredom or lack of reality.

The initial struggle that i went through made seem as if there is a purpose to all this, as if there is a rythm to this madness, to this endless struggle, that i thought i never wanted, but is still getting me someplace "some place nice (Eddie Vedder) ". The imagined place, the imagined job, the imagined woman.

As time goes by met people, smarter, interesting, beautiful, and felt good, bad, and everything in between.

Sometimes there is a rythm and you dont realise it - i did not, i always thought i was just drifting at sea, sometimes i really believed it too.

here i am so close to my dream coming to fruition. I have just been told that i may soon, in 4 days, be going to New jersey, and work there for months to start with and then i will stay there for longer.

I can easily remember the day or the days when i thought i wanted to do this - when i wished for this - almost 10 or more years ago - the struggles that followed, the sunny days at my own company, no money in my pocket and no business flowing in - so far from my dream, so far away from anything close to my wish.

And now after so many many years - it may, just may, just may come true.

How fortune,
so sharp,
like a sword
honest - decisive,
Grants you, your original wish,
just when you did not want it..